I thought I was done after Rhinebeck. (Be quiet, I CAN hear all of you laughing, you know.) My most recent forays into the world of yarn acquisition demonstrates my error. You knew this, and you weren't going to break it to me. NOW I understand all those unfinished sentences when I asked how big your stash was. Or your inability to meet my gaze when I asked about buying yarn on the Web. It's like wine, where you can delude yourself that you are buying less because you are buying better. (Yes, I've recently transitioned from Plymouth brushed alpaca to handspun llama.) Let's take a closer look.
At the idea of stash, NOT at the llama. (Yet.)
When I buy yarn and fiber, I am part of a transaction that resonates down to my toes. When I fall in love with a colorway, a yarn's softness, or a combination of fibers, I'm feeling all the future possibilities of my experiences with that fiber. It is like falling a little in love each time. The promise, the potential of our future relationship with that knitted or spun project is a warm and pleasurable seduction each time it happens.
I have a smaller stash than many, a bigger stash than some. Talking to my fellow stashers knitters points to the fact that our inner psyche governs how much, and what we collect. My stash is an archeologic sampling of my needs, insecurities and hopes at different periods of my knitting and spinning career. There were times of intense need, when I used yarn to salve my psyche. That surely was the time post0p last spring when I was alone and immobile every day. There was the time when I happily and gleefully joined in the acquisitive groupthink of Rhinebeck. That was as much about relationships as it was about fiber purchases. (Yes, I would do it again exactly the same, and will, in the future.) The more interesting times (ones I haven't figured out yet) are related to when I DON'T purchase. Avoidance of guilt, surprisingly, is not the motivator at those times. It's clear to me that at those times, I have no inner forces pushing me to crush more yarn into my bins and closet. How we stash reflects our inner selves, our emotional barometers, and how we soothe ourselves when we respond to pain AND pleasure.
I admire the microstashers. While I don't necessarily aspire to those peaks, I am intrigued by the idea of the psychic weight of stash providing the opposite motivation - that of the antistasher. That will be the next frontier, I think.
When I googled "pack rat" and "collecting behavior", I found this quiz. My score was 17.
This young lady from Vermont asked me to relay a message to the knitters and spinners in blogland. I'll let her speak for herself:

"If you don't buy the yarn my mommy makes from my hair, she threatened to turn me into llamaburgers."